Like a shooting star across the midnight sky…

Random title I know but it’s what I’m listening to Well, Devotion now by Sy & Demo. Having a bit of a Happy Hardcore nostalgia session and this was my FAVOURITE of them all. I miss my big brother and our Sunday afternoons recording Dream FM *sigh*

Baby D ftw!

So…

IT’S SNOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!1 OMFG. I love snow!!!! Can’t believe it’s snowing already! It’s like it never left! Started a CDG course in Croydon on Monday and when we went for our first break, I noticed it was very lightly falling and gradually got heavier as the last hour went on (finished at 12:30) and is still falling! Started around 11am. Wasn’t settling much in Croydon but turning very white around my house in Carshalton! It kept changing from snow to sleet to back again. Seems to have settled on actual flakey snow. I reeeaaaaallllyyyyy want some snow boots! My dad recently bought some and I said I wanted some. Had grey ones when I was little! You can just about see them in this pic. Been writing this for ages and it’s still snowing steadily! It’s starting to settle on the patio now so it’s really starting to be like real snowy snow now.

Went outside to check if the rabbits were alright and gave them even more bedding and covered them back up again. They were fascinated by the snow in February and watched from inside the conservatory! Took our kittens just outside the back door for a minute or so to show them their first snow They started shivering a little bit before I brought them in (they were out for literally a minute and were being held by me).

So the trainee school secretary people rang me and I have to send them my CV. Wasn’t expecting them to call so that was good! Practically had an interview over the phone with the agency so fingers crossed.

ON MY OWWWWWWWWWWNNNNNNNN, ALOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONE, TONIGHT! I love that song. And the film. Bloodsport is INCREDIBLE. Sad that I know the words! Hahaha. They had it on CD ready for my birthday party but they forgot to take it. Me and Martin would’ve been belting it out! Lmao! We’re as sad as each other.

KUMITE KUMITE KUMITE KUMITE KUMITE KUMITE. Gosh, I’m well over-due for a viewing of Bloodsport. Seen it so many times that we say the lines before they do. Hahaha, Ray Jackson is the pilot of The X-Files! Took a pic of him and sent it to Martin. He found it hilarious.

What else was I gonna talk about?

DIR-TY DI-ANA! If Xtina was to sing it (she’d own it), she’d have to call it Dirrty Diana Smooth Criminal now.

K, I’ll update later

Tippy x

Update:

Credit: http://forgethetime.livejournal.com/49015.html

Babies and other boring things!

So another baby has entered the world! Last Tuesday we welcomed Miss Scarlett and Sara’s little girl was born this week! That’s her second and I didn’t even know that Sam was pregnant! Is everybody getting pregnant? Is there something about 2009? Is it the year to be pregnant? Good, glad I never was (or will be – touch wood). Never been one to follow the crowd (not that I’m saying that people I actually love and care about do – yes, I’m being biased and they are the exception – purely because I love and care about them). Will be going to see Kayleigh soon so I shall take her card.

Congratulations Sara

So onto other things… I forgot what else I was gonna say now. Oh. Cleaned out Babs’s hutch and half of Teddie’s today before it got dark. Gonna finish Teddie’s hutch (only scraped out the bedding and didn’t get the chance to scrub it) and gonna do Joy’s hutch tomorrow. She’ll be alright because she has two levels in hers. I had to put a pair of gloves on because my hands got cold. What am I gonna be like when it’s really winter? Not looking forward to it at all. Last year, they were inside! This was before they decided that they hated each other and I had to separate them. My dad is gonna be putting more tarpaulin stuff on the hutches for more insulation. They have a cover that comes down the front and hopefully it won’t be as cold as it was last year. I do love my bunnies. See, they are my babies, I don’t need a real, actual baby. They’re so cute and I love their fur, it feels like velvet (Rex rabbits are known as the Velveteen Rabbit). They’re slowly losing their brown summer fur as they’re moulting. They’re actually completely black but developed a brown tint. They’ll be two in April.

I got an ulcer and it bloody hurts. If it still hurts tomorrow, I’m gonna get my dad to get me some Bonjella, unless we’ve got some. Which I doubt actually.

Had a really horrible dream about Selsey yesterday morning. I dreamt that the sea had come right over and the Waterfront Complex was filled with water. All you could see of the park was the sea and the toilet blocks poking out. It was so vivid and I could hear the roar of the sea and the sound of the helicopter blades. Looking closer, I saw a man diving and he had two kids with him. It made me sad cos it really will happen some day and there’s nothing we can do about it. I woke up thinking it had actually happened it was that vivid! Mum and Chris reckoned it was because it was really windy and rainy. Subconciously, that’s what I associate it with. Also, Chris’ greenhouse blew across the patio and knocked over one of his coldframes, knocking his plants to the floor. He was not impressed.

Onto the weather actually. The floods in Cumbria have been terrible. Absolutely devastating and I just could not imagine what they are going through! How awful for them

Oh, talking about dreams, I saw Jazz and Angelo from my story in one this morning and they were together. I just felt like, “aww! They’re my creation and I miss them. Must start writing again!” so yes, I will. My dream made it seem almost as if they were real and not in my head or on Microsoft Word paper.

I feel a bit better after eating that sandwich, I feel less dizzy. All I’ve had to eat today is dinner and I didn’t eat all of that. Weirdly. I’ve lost my appetite and haven’t lost any weight. Which is good, cos I don’t want to. I haven’t spent the last four years putting weight on just to lose it again. I was at my thinnest in 2005. I weighed seven stone and when I see pics of myself from then I cringe! It’s not cos I wanted to be thin, I just couldn’t be bothered to eat. Still feel that way now sometimes. I’m eight stone seven now and it suits me much better. I still want to put on a little more weight cos I’m not happy with it yet. Plus, I want a bit more fat on my hips for when I get my tattoo next year . I lost about a stone in March 2008 cos Chris was a div but I gained it back (and more) pretty quickly. Some of my old clothes fit me much much better now. I have 3 pairs of jeans I’ve had since about 2001 and they fit me now! They never did before. My famous hippy jeans (had them from around 2001 too) fit me like they’re supposed to now. I swear, I would live in them if I could! I adore them and the bottoms of them are frayed and they’re stonewashed now, as opposed to the blue colour they were before. Martin said that on the video of the BBQ in 2003, you can see them hanging on the line.

Dunno what else to say now. Oh, I hope you’re still watching this space

Tippy x

My Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome.

Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome (DSPS)

When I was five, my mum and dad took me to a sleep clinic because my body clock was very wrong. I’d sleep in until about 3pm and not sleep until late at night. I think the doctor’s told them that I’d grow out of it and guess what? I never did.

Delayed sleep-phase syndrome (DSPS), also known as delayed sleep-phase disorder (DSPD) or delayed sleep-phase type (DSPT), is a circadian rhythm sleep disorder, a chronic disorder of the timing of sleep, peak period of alertness, core body temperature, hormonal and other daily rhythms relative to societal norms. People with DSPS tend to fall asleep some hours after midnight and have difficulty waking up in the morning.

I remember when I was little (this is probably how I used to watch The X-Files before I could read properly) and I used to get out of bed and Martin used to shout, “Charlotte’s out of bed!” and the thing was, it wasn’t my fault that I was awake late! My mum and dad obviously knew something wasn’t right because they took me to see someone about it. Even when I had a routine I was struggling with my sleep patterns. When I was at school and when I was at 6th form, I used come home from Chris’ at 10pm and sometimes if Martin was on the PC, I’d go straight to bed. It’d take me hours to fall asleep and I’d still have difficulty waking up in the morning. You could say that I’m awake all night because I sleep late – I’m up late because I’m awake all night. My body clock is messed up.

Often, people with the disorder report that they cannot sleep until early morning, but fall asleep at about the same time every “night”. Unless they have another sleep disorder such as sleep apnea in addition to DSPS, patients can sleep well and have a normal need for sleep. Therefore, they find it very difficult to wake up in time for a typical school or work day. If, however, they are allowed to follow their own schedules, e.g. sleeping from 4 a.m. to noon, they sleep soundly, awaken spontaneously, and do not experience excessive daytime sleepiness.
The syndrome usually develops in early childhood or adolescence,[1] and sometimes disappears in adolescence or early adulthood. Depending on the severity, it can be to a greater or lesser degree treatable. Prevalence among adults, equally distributed among women and men, is approximately 0.15% or three in 2000.

I think now that I don’t have a routine, it’s really prevalent. It says on the Wikipedia that it’s responisble for 7-10% of people’s chronic insomnia so yay me! ¬_¬ I can literally stay up all night even if I had to get up early. I do not have a regular sleep pattern. Funny thing is, when I go on holiday, I have a perfectly normal one! I can still go to bed late and wake up at a semi normal time!

The major feature of these disorders is a misalignment between the patient’s sleep pattern and the sleep pattern that is desired or regarded as the societal norm…. In most circadian rhythm sleep disorders, the underlying problem is that the patient cannot sleep when sleep is desired, needed or expected.

That last bit is true and so incredibly annoying! It’s usually when I have to get up early and just cannot sleep! The article is an interesting read and it tells you a bit more about me and my sleeping issues. There’s loads more I can quote – bits that I nodded at and it rang true with me. It’s good that I finally understand my issues! (Well, not all of them )

I would say, ‘so onto other things’ but I have nothing else to say. Well, Raj and I are talking about Vincent Van Gogh and how I relate to him (I actually to, don’t mock me!!!). My mum even said that “Vincent” by Don McClean could be about me. No one appreciates me or my art! (by art, I mean my photography and writing. If you want to see my photograpy, there’s a link on the right ). Maybe people will understand me before I go mad and top myself. As the song says, no one understands me and no one is willing to. But that’s ok. I don’t need people’s approval. At least all the time.

It was pouring down earlier! I was gonna clean the bunnies out but it started and then it got dark

X-Factor time and Stacey is on. I love her, I think she’s great. I said last week that I want her or Joe to win, definitely! Her singing was good but the song was a bit dull.

Anyway, laters. Might update in a bit

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