Letter to my sixteen year old self

Dear Charlotte,

I know this is really weird but you are an X-Files fangirl so it won’t be much of a scare for you. I’m writing to you from 2009! Isn’t that cool? I have some things to tell you, to warn you if you like. You’re pretty perceptive so you’ll already be mentally and emotionally prepared anyway.

So here goes…

Mr Sambrook DOES NOT look like Ben Affleck but the memory will be a happy one forever.

They are your best friends and you think that things will never change even if you’ve already been through so much together already. You will drift apart from them when relationships come but don’t worry too much, that’s life and everybody’s gotta learn sometime. You will keep them in your heart forever.

Savour this year – next year she will leave you behind and things will be really tough between you but you will always love her, no matter how many times you cry and say that you give up on her. It will hurt like hell and you will feel like your heart is breaking but be strong, you will get through it.

She is not your friend so don’t trust her. She has been letting you down for all these years and she will never change. You will have some happy memories but she blames you for everything. She is very insecure (but you always knew that anyway). Don’t believe everything she says and don’t worry when she tells you that you will never be a good girlfriend to anyone (you soon show her ).

There will be songs you’ll hear 5 years later and they will make you remember these feelings you’re having right now and they will make you smile, they might even make you cry.

He will never love you the way you love him – you don’t love him as much as you think you do and your first love is yet to come when you least expect it to. You will know the moment you meet him. He may buy you that necklace but don’t take it as a token of any kind. He just has too much money and it probably didn’t take much thought.

When you dye half of your hair red, the habit will stick and you’ll try every colour

A new era is about to start; it’s short lived but enjoy every minute of it as it doesn’t last. You will gain a best friend for life from it though and you will stay in relative contact with some of them even if you don’t think you ever will again.

Tell that tall boy with the big boots that “Super Smash Brothers” promotes violence – you will remember that first exchange of words forever. When he tells you that he loves you, you won’t know what to say at first but the words come. He means it and so do you.

You will hurt her but don’t worry, she will forgive you. Realise that it will be this way for three years but you will be friends again (don’t be stubborn) and you will be one of the first people she contacts when she has her baby.

You will still be friends with her 5 years later even though you first met randomly online by pure chance and you will talk as much as you always did, all these years later.

Make sure you get Chris to buy Project Zero – it will kick off a mini era and broaden your knowledge of all things Japanese.

Treasure Ruby and Dolly above all else. You will miss them when they’re gone.

So, I think that’s it. I’m sorry if any of it scares you but put it this way, I’m alive now right? Well, you are. I may sound like Mystic Meg here but a word of warning now; 2005 will be a really bad year but you will get through it. 2006 is a reward for you! You go travelling and you meet someone you will instantly gel with and will become very good friends with. 2007 is a bit meh, 2008 is alright and so is 2009. That’s all I have to say for now.

Oh, sometime in the near future, you will randomly meet three Danish boys and a baker on a game called Maple Story. Don’t worry, they really are as weird as they sound but they will be great friends of yours! One of them will be one of your best friends in fact. You will meet another friend who comes from Lancashire and he will be a good friend, even if you have your ups and downs!

Be safe and make sure you eat something in 2005!

Love from you xxxx

Hmm.

Erm… right. As to yesterday’s entry, I’d had a bottle of wine and was feeling tipsy! So I woke up a little while ago but that wasn’t the first time I’ve been awake today – I woke up at 9ish and asked Chris for a drink, then woke up at 11 for a while before falling back to sleep.

I then went on to dreaming about Tony Gordon and then Cedric Diggory as Edward Cullen. There was a lot of blood in the first one and someone who was meant to be Hayley was in it. She killed him and then went on to try and kill me and someone else (can’t remember who it was now) but Tony was only pretending to be dead and I saw him alive right at the end. The other one was basically Cedric running around the grounds of a grand house during the day and I was trying to protect him and make sure he didn’t fry.

Oh, there was another weird one with loads of rain and another one where Nicolai was with us and we got into a lift (anyone who knows me knows that I have a mortal fear of them and when I dream of them, it never ends well) and I don’t think Chris was there but my first thought was to hold on tight to him like I usually do in lifts. But anyway, the lift only went down a couple of floors but it sort of span on it’s way down instead of just going straight. As soon as the doors opened, I ran out and went into the street to wait for the others to come out. Nicolai came out, followed by my Nan and Jacqueline, who for some reason, had purple hair with glitter? I think that was it. That was the first one I before the weird rain one and the Tony Gordon one and the Cedric one.

I still feel tired! Gonna have some pasta and tomato Ragu. Chris’ sister had loads of her friends round last night and they were singing and shouting until about 1am. I said that they were lightweights but now I know it’s because they were going somewhere today. I heard Alex shouting about it this morning when I first woke up. Think they’re prolly going to Camden. Chris pointed out that their group of friends was like how we were back in the day but the other way round; we had 2 girls and a bunch of boys. I’ve always got on better with boys, ever since junior school. Funny really how two of my best friends, who were best friends, are completely different now. One of them is a complete and utter chav (which surprised me) and the other is normal (but I knew he would be). As for the other two, one of them is a junior accountant (I only know this cos we got his post one day by accident – I was so proud of him ) and I don’t know anything about the other one. Just found one of them on Facebook and the other one I probably wouldn’t recognise now.

Chris is playing Mario Sunshine on his Gamecube. What were Nintendo on? I always thought the SMS tracks on Mario Kart were a bit odd but the game they were based on…

I should get dressed really but I can’t be bothered.

Oh, hi to whoever is reading my blog through Facebook (although, tbh, it’s easier to just type in the address at the top instead of going to it through my profile). It’s good being able to see how people get to my blog and which links/pages/entries they look at. I can see everything, mwahahaha. Even what people type into Google when my blog comes up. I peaked at 48 views yesterday! The most since the 11th. Most of my views are from people on Twitter though. The Facebook viewer has only looked a couple of times.

So there was more 3D stuff on last night: “The Greatest 3D Moments Ever” which we recorded because the Impressions Show was on. We watched (well I watched) “Friday the 13th Part III” which was rubbish. Not scary at all. My dad said that he has seen all of them lol. There was some really obvious “you’re watching this in 3D” things, such as yo-yo’s coming at the screen, juggling balls, sticks, Jason’s arms. The Frankenstein movie was better with the 3D. Miley’s concert is on now in 3D and it does look pretty cool. Much better than the films. It looks semi-normal without the glasses too – the 3D blue/yellow stuff isn’t as obvious and there’s not as much ghosting. We’re gonna watch the shows on 4OD on the tv.

Nothing else to say now. Add stuff later.

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Bleeeehhhh

Bored

Wish I had my laptop Fix it for me plz.

I don’t actually have anything to write about tbh. I’m just bored. Watching a really old Hallowe’en Simpsons on T4. The Simpson’s were much weirder then! The older the episodes are, the weirder they are!

Soooo X-Factor tonight! I think it’s all a load of rubbish personally. I don’t think any of them are particularly good. Stacey is the only decent singer left so if I had to choose, she’d be who I wanted to win. I hate Danyl, I think he’s a rubbish singer and I think people are starting to see through it! He just yells. I wish that they’d give him (& the twins) a ballad that he wasn’t allowed to yell but SING. Ugh, he gets on my nerves. Jamie isn’t bad, I liked his version of “Hurt” but nothing since then. Olly was disappointing last night and I love Joe. I think he’s really good and definitely the best male vocalist out of them all! I’m not even gonna comment on Jedward. Who else is there? Is that it? Who am I forgetting? Oh, I forgot about Lloyd! Hahaha. Awww. He’s cute but he can’t sing, the poor thing. He’s got a singing voice, but it’s not big enough or good enough for this type of thing. I mean, for once, I agree with Louis (he’s so annoying and out of touch) and say that he’d be better in a boyband!!! I hope either Lloyd, Twins or Danyl bugger orf tonight but I don’t see it =(

I only really like Dannii and I think that Cheryl Cole is an idiot! Simon Cowell just makes me LOL (especially when I was looking at old Pop Idol videos last night – his hair! Lmao!)

Is this blog actually going anywhere??? I’m just rambling now. What was I going to say?

I was up late last night talking to Allan and Rose whilst waiting to see if anything was happening with Kayleigh (she didn’t text me so I assume it was just a warning sign). I must say, I have had less bizaare conversations! Lol! I like Lumpy’s friends. Probably because they’re not that much younger than me and they’re all pretty mature. I can’t wait until they’re all 18, I’ll take them out clubbing =P (as long as James Steward doesn’t swallow any straws??) I suppose it’s similar in the way that I’m close to Neville, Michael and Christian. I know that I grew up with them but there’s not much difference in age there either, is there? They’re only four years older than me and thinking about it, age gaps in friends aren’t really important. I mean, one of my bestest closest friends is Amanda and she’s 28! We’re on the same wavelength and we like the same things. She makes me laugh because she’s just so funny and I love being around her. She’s a good listener too and gives good advice.

It doesn’t matter where your friends live either, as long as they’re there. Take Nico and Raj for example. Nico lives in Denmark and Raj lives even further away in America! Both of them are my best friends and they’re always there for me and vice versa. Hopefully both of them are coming to see me next year and we’ll go out and drink and have fun. Taking Nico to Brighton for a night! That’ll be amazing.

Why is channel 4 going 3D? They’re so weird but I love them. Definitely my favourite channel. I call it the rebel channel and I asked my mum if they’ve always been the same and she said, “y-yeah, they’ve always been a bit weird.” haha!

Watched a new impressions show last night and it was hilarious! My favourite ones were Davina McCall, Michael McIntyre and Noel Edmonds. The Davina one almost had me in tears! It was so funny and spot on!

Clueless is on tonight! I love that film.

(You can tell I’m running out of things to say because it’s in one sentences!)

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