Kayleigh and Scarlett

Updating now

So I went to see Kayleigh and Scarlett today! Asked my mum on Facebook(!) if she wanted to come and see her with me and she said, “me – coming to see a new baby – what do you think!” so I went home, got changed and we were dropped off in Wallington at just gone four. We got the 157 and got off at the hospital, making our way around to Women’s Health. Went up to Maternity and found Kayleigh and Scarlett. Her nan, Matt and Danny were already there. Scarlett is bigger than I thought she’d be! Kayleigh said so herself. So after a few minutes, the others left. I held Scarlett for a little while whilst mum and Kayleigh talked about babies and stuff. I mentioned the derelict hospitals I’ve looked at on the internet and told them about how quickly the place would deteriate if it was just closed. They tend to leave loads of expensive equipment behind and it’s really quite creepy! The ward had loads of people in it which I suppose is understandable. Mum thinks she might’ve seen Maria’s sister as Maria had her baby yesterday. She was due the same day as Kayleigh.

It’s really odd to think that Scarlett came from Kayleigh’s belly! She’s a beautiful baby and usually I don’t care much about babies but I’m making an exception for this one! I’m not maternal AT ALL and hearing those babies made me cringe We were there for about an hour and a half and got the 151 back to Wallington where dad picked us up from outside Lidl.

Will be going to see her after the weekend when they’ve settled in. After hearing my mum and Kayleigh talk, it’s made me realise that I could never go through all that pain and work and effort. I don’t trust myself to bring up a child – I’m far too selfish and I don’t think I’ll ever grow up. It’s just not me!

Watching Most Haunted now but I’m not gonna start talking about it actually sod it. I love this show. Even if you believe or not, you can’t deny that it’s entertaining. I’m not sure what to believe anymore. Getting sceptical on my old age I used to be into paranormal stuff in a BIG way. I used to love all things to do with ghosts, hauntings, aliens and other paranormal-ly stuff. Now, I think I’d need this stuff proven to me which would be a very hard job to do unfortunately.

I’m hungry! I’ve had dinner but I think my appetite is starting to come back now which is good. It’s been up and down a lot lately.

K, I’m bored now.

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Aww!

Going to go and see Kayleigh and Scarlett in an hour or so…

Scrap that, gotta go home and get ready now!

Will update later.

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Ho hum and random stuff and things

Feeling totally emo, sorry. Luck doesn’t seem to want to be my friend this week.

I’ve lost nearly a whole years worth of photos because Chris’ HDD decided to jump off the top of the CPU and break. Oh bye me. Bloody waste of time if you ask me! There’s some other stuff too that I don’t really want to go into but basically, letting stuff get too much isn’t a good thing.

I have some good news though! Scarlett Jarvis was born at 22:55 yesterday evening weighing 9lb 8oz! After Kayleigh texted me yesterday, I was up until 5am and was awoken at 7am from a text she sent me, informing me of the news! I read it half asleep and having only 2 hours sleep! Haha. I woke up at 11am thinking that I had dreamt it! I was so happy! gonna go to the hospital to see them tomorrow as she’s coming home Friday morning. Also pleased that she wasn’t born on a Wednesday so she’s now “full of grace” and not woe which is nice as her mum is a classy young lady and someone that I love very much! <3

Dunno what I'm gonna write about now. Ooh yeah.

FRANKENSTEIN IN 3D! It was weeeiiiiirrrrrdddd! Kinda cool in parts though. The film was campy, cheesy, 1973 horror and was really funny and a bit porny tbh. Boobies everywhere. Actually, anything on TV in 3D is just odd. It works ok, it's not brilliant but cool all the same. I had to wear my glasses over the top of the 3D ones so I could sit further back and not in front of the screen, holding them on my face!

Onto something new now:

BURLESQUE starring Christina Aguilera and Cher! Started filming a few days ago and we're getting candids of Xtina on set already!!! She looks amazing! And there’s a video here.

Credit: XtinaWeb.org

I’m so excited for this film (mainly because I’m a stan)! Really looking forward to going to see it in the cinema! Mind you, I said that about Sex and The City and The X-Files but I never went to see them THIS I definitely will though.

I think I should perhaps add more to my about page? Kinda boring at the moment but then again, so am I! And so is this blog.

Been watching TrueBlood? I love it! it’s so good. And I love Stephen Moyer, mainly because he comes from Essex and greeted Steve Jones with “ello luv” in glorious Estuary English! Link here.

OMG! Not my boring weather man on BBC1! Guess what? He’s saying it’s raining in that lovely monotone drawl of his! HOO-FUCKING-RAY! Sorry. But still. Hello November! He has moved his hair so it doesn’t like quite as grey and dark grey Cruella De Vil-ish. RAIN. All like to be windy and wet. Wet and windy. Windy and showery. Sunday showers. Sunday fairly windy. *Sigh*.

Bugger all on telly… OOOOH. Angel is on Sci-Fi in 10 minutes. Hawtness.

Still got a headache

Ahhh, the end of Buffy. Which episode? I think this is where Kendra dies. Lemme go check. Oooh! Angelus! Sooo hawt. Hawter than Angel.

Becoming – Part One
Part one of two. Angel attempts to destroy the world by reviving an ancient demon, while Buffy and Willow race against time to restore the vampire’s soul. Elsewhere, Spike goes on the prowl, having finally recovered from his injuries. Supernatural adventure, starring Sarah Michelle Gellar

Bye Angelus Omg, I love Dru. She’s amazing. It’s finishing now and the Buffy/Angel love theme is playing. Buffy just found Kendra dead.

The Angel episode next is:

Inside Out
As Cordelia prepares to give birth, Angel discovers her link with the Beast is part of a conspiracy that has been manipulating them all for years. Meanwhile, Connor is forced to confront his dead mother

Ahh, Darla <3 I love her so much. I completely forgot that she was the first EVER vampire you see in the Buffy pilot until I watched them all. Bless her, she shared Connor's soul and staked herself to save him. My favourite episode of Buffy/Angel is the "Fool For Love"/"Darla" crossover. You learn a lot about Angelus, Darla, Spike and Dru. Amazing.

"Has Cordy been a bad, bad girl?" and the Magic 8-Ball says, "Definitely". Haha. I love Lorne. I really hope I honour Andy Hallett in my story. Actually, I hope I honour all the people who inspired my "gang".

Talking to Sandyodeeee on Twitter about Angel now What a great show it was. It's a shame that Joss Whedon could never match it with Firefly and Dollhouse

I love Wesley. I love his evolution. As he said, "my throat was cut and all my friends abandoned me". That's a good excuse to rebel Plus, Faith tortured him in season one so he had his reasons!

Poor Connor so naive.

OMG it's Skip! Haha. I loved him even if he turned out to be playing them. hahah. "Nobody comes back from paradise. Ok, a Slayer once…" reference to Buffy dying and going to Heaven! LOL. Oh Angel. So gorgeous.

Aww! DARLA! I love her. She was such a sad character. Always felt really sorry for her, especially when she revealed that she couldn’t remember her real name after 400 years of life. She was already 200-odd when she sired Liam and therefore turned him in Angelus. She was dying before The Master changed her and when Wolfram & Hart brought her back as human, she started to die again. Then Dru turned her back She’s trying to convince Connor not to kill the girl now.

Skip is telling them that everything happened for a reason to bring the whole story together. It makes sense when you think about it all and the way it happened.

Oops, there goes the girl. He didn’t listen to his mother! Silly boy!

Uh oh, Cordy has gone into labour and here comes Jasmine! (not my Jasmine though). CONNOR, IT ISN’T CORDELIA YOU SILLY BOY! Oops, there’s daddy! Angel is so much better when he’s pissed off. Kill him? yeah! Good luck Connor. He has 240 years experience on you. Yeah, go on Wes, shoot Skip! Wesley is so sexy when he wants to be.

Hey ho, there’s Jasmine. She was sooo annoying and only Fred could see her real face. Oh Angel, you noob. Don’t fall under her spell

Finished now! Gonna go bed in a bed. Tired.

Night night!

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Not a happy bunny

I want to work on a cruise ship I want to work in a veterinary practice I want to work somewhere where I can be creative

Looked for jobs under Admin, Hotel Reception, Animal Care, Media and what else? There was loads of jobs that were just too far away! I found a job in a vets in Warlingham and it’s just too far – I mean, I struggled getting to Hackbridge/Mitcham everyday! The traffic around there was mental some days! Usually, it didn’t matter what time I left my house, it wouldn’t make any difference to what time the 127 turned up! I’d love to work with animals. I keep looking for jobs with Battersea Dogs Home, Dog’s Trust and Cats Protection League and there’s nothing! *Sigh* BDH would be easy to get to. Just get on the south central train to Victoria and get off at Battersea – the station is right next to it! Whenever I go into London I look over at it.

Either way, I found an ad for this and I’ve love to do that! How amazing would it be? I have too much keeping me in England though. If I didn’t, I’d apply tonight! Ok, I don’t like kids but I’m fairly good with them and I’d love to work in the entertainments industry. God, I’d see the world! Part of me wants to leave, to get out of this place but I’d leave too much behind.

I’d love to work in a hotel, always wanted to do that. Kicking myself for not applying for the receptionist job in Carshalton from a couple of months ago. Why didn’t I do that? What an idiot.

Sometimes I think about if I had a car. I’d literally just disappear into the night. I’d pack a bag and I’d leave. Don’t know where I’d go though. Maybe to Brighton or Selsey. Hell, if I was brave enough, I’d drive up to The New Beehive Inn in Bradford! I dunno how long I’d be gone for. A few days at most.

Just so fed up with life atm. Where is Fate? I normally have a good relationship with it but it seems to have taken a break from me. Just wish I knew what I wanted in life. I change my mind about what I wanna do practically every week! Wish I could just decide and do it. I had plans to do all these courses but if I can’t decide what I want to do, what’s the point?

Hmm, maybe I should think about going into modeling again. I toyed with that idea for a while but thinking about pictures of me, I promptly change my mind! It’d be easy money! Always been told I could do it. Just don’t think I’m that photogenic

I don’t even know what sector I’m looking in on Fish4Jobs. “Agriculture, Animals & Environment Catering & Hospitality Domestic” apparently. Great. Oh, the Job Centre job search is bloody useless. Looks for jobs up north or in Scotland. Ffs.

*Cries*

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EDIT:

Just heard from Kayleigh! She’s in the hospital and has been induced! Scarlett will be here soon!

I’ll be waiting all night for news now!!! Ahhh!

Shall update later!

EDIT@03:30

Haven’t heard anything yet but I should imagine she’s had her by now! Shall do a proper update tomorrow!

Memory Lane =)

For the last hour, I’ve been watching videos of Will Young from 2002 and realising that “I still get that sentimental feeeeeeling” when it comes to him. I loved him and actually, I’m not ashamed to say that I still do! I don’t care!

Even after 7 years, I can still remember release dates and what I recorded on video. I have a plastic wallet full of magazine cuttings. I even have 2 mini posters on my wall after all these years! I listen to his “From Now On” (released on the 7th of October 2002) album and I still feel the same way when I hear it.

I saw him at London Arena on the 3rd of October 2002 and at the Regents Street lights on the 14th of November 2002 where he sang “You and I” and “Winter Wonderland”

Seeing some of those videos was a strange experience tbh. It was almost as if it wasn’t 7 years ago that I recorded them! I still remember it. Especially the T4 interviews with Simon Amstell and Miquita! They were on tv when Light My Fire was released (27th of May 2002). I still remember waking up that muggy May morning when it premiered on GMTV and I think there was an interview too.

As people who know me know, “Friday’s Child” is my favourite song and it was a weird coincidence when the woman played it at my birthday! The “Friday’s Child” album is good too and it reminds me of Xmas 2003.

Now this:

LOL!

For a while now I’ve been living in 2002. From Angel to Will to the stormy night in Selsey. I guess I was happy in 2001-2005. I had two different eras happen at once and sadly, they’re both over now. They say that you learn and grow up and I guess that’s true. Everybody has their own life now and although that’s all in my past now, somehow, it’s shaped my future. I’ll never be able to look at certain things and not think of things that remind me of them again but that’s a good thing. I’m not bitter about those eras, in fact, it’s the complete opposite.

OMG KAYLEGH! I think it’s started for her! It’s 00:58 and she’s told me that she’s “actually having a baby”!!! Ooooh! How exciting!!! IT BEGINS! Funny how I was just talking about eras and maybe a new one is about to start????

Edit @ 01:56:
No news yet from Kayleigh! Fingers crossed though! =D