Things to say.

I really suck at keeping a blog right? Don’t answer that. I actually have a lot to write about but I don’t know how I would say it.

2011 started on a pretty low point. I couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. My money from JSA had been stopped in November. I couldn’t find a job. I had almost no money. I had things to pay for. I was in trouble and it had been getting worse for months because I like to bury my head in the sand. But something changed when the Wheel turned on the 20th of March. That light at the end of the tunnel started off as a pinprick but slowly grew; I just couldn’t see it yet.

In February I decided to change my spirituality. Christened as a baby, I was felt I had a duty to have some sort of believe in Christianity. I love the symbolism of it and I love the faith itself. But I have never been a Christian. As you may have noticed from other entries, I love the earth. I believe in Mother Nature and believe that she is in control. Chris brought me back two books from the charity shop, ‘Wicca’ and ‘Paganism’, as a joke in reference to Buffy and Willow. Something clicked in my head. This is the path I have been on for all of my life. I just didn’t understand it yet. I came to realise that this is what I truly believed in. Everything the book said made sense to me and when I got to the part that said:

“Mining, logging, deforestation, the lowering of the water table, all these short-term economic benefits were persued at the expense of the long-term viability of our planet. Nature was seen as available for exploitation; we were in control. We were wrong. The powers of the elements are not under our control. We cannot hold back the seas that erode our coastlines, the gales that destroy cities and forests, the raging forest fires of over-dry summers, or the earthquakes and volcanoes that threaten to engulf some of our land. Climatic change, global warming, environmental conferences, CFC gases; our newspapers are full of such phrases. Nature is like our mother. We can abuse her and she will tolerate us because we are her children; but there will become a point where she has had enough. The Great Mother gives birth to our species, but she also receives us into death.” – Vivienne Crowley

I knew that is something I have agreed with all of my life. Finally I have found the path that I can follow and one I understand. Some will associate Wicca with witchcraft and they would be correct. But not all Wiccans call themselves witches and not all witches call themselves Wiccans. It is a spirituality where there are no set guidelines or rules (other than the Wiccan Rede and their own Book of Shadows). There is no bible or other holy book. Each Wiccan is free to follow his or her own path. I am going to be an eclectic Wiccan which means I will be borrowing from different traditions and making my own which most definitely suits me! I will have my Sabbat altar where I will celebrate the Wheel of the Year. I will have my Sabbat rituals and will do them skyclad (yes naked) and I will have a cauldron (a symbol for the womb and fertility – not hubble tubble toil and trouble). But I will not be a witch. Not yet anyway I will have a besom/broom which is a symbol for luck. Witches got the notion of flying on their brooms from flying ointment which made them high and made them believe they were actually flying! I will celebrate Hallowe’en with more glee than I already do (I knew there had to be a reason for loving Hallowe’en so much!!!). My easter starts on the 20th of March, not when people take the cue from Christianity (even non-religious types!). My Christmas has become Yule and starts on the 21st of December.

My aunt Jacqueline is a Buddhist and she has her own sanctuary in her flat. Some Wiccans borrow from Buddhist beliefs. She is pleased that I have chosen a similar path.

Last week I was at my lowest point. My mum sorted out my money problems but I still had no money. On Wednesday, I got a missed call and it turned out to be from a job I applied for about 2 weeks ago. I was invited to an interview and the job is in Kingston. We arranged it for Friday morning.

I chose my black shirt, my navy trousersuit and my Arabian Glow Teal Waters nail varnish and a matching necklace and eyeshadow. I caught the train at 09:18 and got to Kingston at 10:25. I got to the place and I liked it straight away. Although small, it was familiar to me and had a display of laptop chargers in the counter. I got to see the man at 11:15ish. The interview went very well and I think he liked me because of my experience. So afterwards, I went off and wandered around Kingston for about fifteen minutes before getting bored and catching the train to go home. I was home in just over an hour and I was shattered after waking up at 6:30am.

At around 3pm, I started drifting off to sleep. My phone rang at 3:30pm and I was offered the job. I’m gonna enjoy getting the train in the morning

So in one week, my life changed. It is funny how these things happen. As I said, I definitely felt something shift when the Wheel turned and it was Ostara. It is the time of of fertility, birth and renewal. Pretty appropriate that this has happened at this time of year. Do you see why I feel so connected to it? I don’t expect you to understand but it is what I believe in. It is what I have always believed in. I just didn’t fully know it yet (I always had a ‘feeling’ but I never knew what it was).

Another thing I wanted to talk about was the earthquakes and tsunami that occured in Japan on the 11th of March. I feel other than my love for Japan, it is appropriate for what I have been saying about Mother Nature and how she is in control and has always been. I am heartbroken by what happened and I know that they will get back on their feet.

I also have another entry about Selsey and their connection to the sea coming up (I even gathered news articles a while ago!).

Oh! And another thing which doesn’t relate to any of the above. Two words.

LAS. VEGAS.

This trip will be happening in around 2030 (ha) and it will consist of me, Chris, Raj, Chris G and Nicolai having the week of our lives in beautiful Nevada. We will get the plane to Atlanta then shall road trip across (I know it is a long way) to Nevada. We will lose money in the casinos, watch a booby show or three, swim in the Flamingo’s tropical pool, visit the Mob exhibition at the legendary Tropicana and best of all, visit the Little A’Le’Inn and Area 51. It will be amazing and I cannot wait.

Another thing.

Christina Aguilera. The Voice. With Adam Levine.

*Dies of too much fan girl goodness*

THAT IS A DREAM COME TRUE. My two favourite artists working together. I swear that of they collabo, I will die of happiness and will need to be rescusitated(sp???).

Ok, now I am rambling and not making much sense. I had my hair cut too. It is now just below my shoulders and I have a fringe. Yes. I like it and I am growing out the colour from December. It is much lighter than it was as well because I have been using the John Frieda Blonde stuff. Jane said that my hair is in terrible condition and I had to get it into better condition before she will do anything with it. I want blonde highlights again.

Ok bye.

Tippy x

PS:- I guess I did know how to say it afterall.

*Sniff sniff*

*Sniffs Olbas oil* o hai.

All this week, I’ve been feeling pretty yucky. Rotten cold and on Friday, I pulled my back although it’s fine now with the odd twinge here and there. My head is full of catarrh and my nose is sore. Feel a bit better now I’ve had some hot orange and brandy as well as the olbas oil. Head feels a bit clearer.

Work is good. Actually enjoying it! Nice to have a bit of creative freedom in an environment which actually matters (i.e. not for profit). I like the people I work with (Jackie, Christiana, Carlon, Jeneece, Malikah, Joshua, Jaime, Lyndon, Samia and others).

So, my dad got a new car – a 2002 Peugeot 307 aaaaand I’ll be sharing it with him!!!! Will be resuming my driving lessons next week hopefully then I can practice in the per-joe! I’ll have it evenings and weekends as well as whenever he’s not gonna use it. Just makes sense as I can’t afford my own car right now. Exciting!

Wasn’t Eastenders amazing on Friday!? Omg. I miss Bradley already! What brilliant actors they all are – it’s all so sad My favourite bit was when Ronnie walked out of the shop without paying for the paint stripper

What else can I talk about? Hmm…

Tippy x

I’m bored.

Yep, you read it right, I am indeed BORED. I wanted to watch the next episode of season seven of The X-Files (“Via Negativa”) but for some reason, my laptop wouldn’t play it. Kept making a really weird noises. It played it before because I watched it on here before and the other episodes on the disc worked?

Anyways.

Work again tomorrow, I wonder what fun things I’ll be given to do to pass my five hours. Hmm…

A little while ago, Chris bought loads of games and most of the characters in all of the games have been in Project Zero 3, Grim and Evil, Dexter’s Lab, Ben 10, Xensaga, Dark Cloud 2… lol it’s really weird. The guy who played Kei in PZ3 is in an episode of Bones called “The Superhero in the Alley”. Chris wants to watch that one episode to see him. lol.

My nose is really tingling, hope I’m not getting a cold. I had porridge earlier and it’s burnt my tongue

I feel like posting a picture.

Sigh.

Yes, so… Um… I was meant to update wasn’t I?

As to last night, I was tired and couldn’t be bothered to write and fell asleep at 11:30pm… Hmm.

So last Monday(!), I started my new job. I love the building and the area it’s in; it’s the heart of derelict Croydon which if you know me, you’d know that I love that stuff. I can see the near derelict St. George’s Walk from my office window! Gah, I love it. I was told that the whole St. George’s Walk area was due to be demolished and developed but the buyer pulled out. The government is now trying to get people back in the buildings. The kitchen overlooks Pop World and Victorian Croydon (and you know how I feel about all things Victorian!). It’s weird being in a big (half derelict) building rather than in two little units in the middle of an industrial estate in the middle of nowhere. There’s a near empty vending machine and we’re next to an accountants and a computer company. The first, second and third floors are empty! I think the third floor has people on it sometimes cos I’m sure there was a light on at some point during the week. I use the stairs as I hate lifts but we’re not on the 10th floor or anything (there isn’t a 10th floor) so I don’t mind the stairs. They remind me of the marbled stairs you get in school, actually.

So when I started on Monday, there was Jackie the boss and someone else who works on Mondays and Thursdays. I was only there for an hour so that doesn’t count

So Tuesday… um… what did I do? Not a lot. Worked out my times as 10am to 2:30pm, Monday to Friday. We looked at the website and decided what we would do to change it. Um… then I went home. Oh wait, I think that’s when we had an induction thing.

Wednesday, someone called Carlon started. I like him but he’s a bit weird and talks to himself, praising himself and telling himself that’s he’s a genius… Not used to having a male in the office. lol. I typed up the thing for the website and started something else (what was it?). Oh yeah, the Croydon Women’s Scheme Information Sheet. Then I went home.

Thursday, I finished the WS thing (I think). Why can’t I remember anything about Thursday?

Friday, I went through the Benefits manual and Googled, Wiki’d and wrote down things that needed updating as the booklet came out in 2004. To be honest, I just think that she wants to give me stuff to do! Most of the manual was still up to date as well.

There was other stuff I was gonna write about but I can’t remember it now. Everytime I answer the rarely ringing phone, I’m always nearly saying Zafron. Lol. Habit, I guess

What else has happened this week? Chris started playing my X-Files game and LOL at Polygon Mulder, Polygon Scully, Polygon Skinner, Polygon Lone Gunmen, Polygon Krychek, Polygon Marita and Polygon CGB Spender! They have their mannerisms and it’s high-larious.

OOH! I didn’t write about Manda’s birthday, did I? It was so good seeing her after ages (August)! She looked gorgeous! Took us 45 minutes to get there as we got lost in Croydon (don’t ask). We were there until about 10:30pm but still, seeing Manda was the reason I was there. Now I’m working in Croydon, I’ll see her more I hope!

I keep getting a pain in my ear

What else was I gonna talk about? I dunno. Oh, we got a tiny bit of snow last night! I thought it was all over but obviously not. I mean, it’s still snow season and the stuff that we’d get now will be our usual westerly snow, not the hard stuff we got from the east at the end of December/early January so it wouldn’t stick around for as long. The sky is clear blue at the moment. It was -1 earlier but my weather gadget is saying it’s 2 degrees now. It was practically a heatwave with temperatures of 7 degrees the other week!

Anyways. Might add more later (I always say that, don’t I?)

Tippy x

Open that door!

Too tired. Will tell you tomorrow.